Nope

 My sister asked me a question yesterday "do you wish they were yours?"  I didn't even have to hesitate I just answered "Nope"
 15 months ago when I started this journey the goal I had in my mind was to help a couple have a family.  I knew that it will be emotional.  If we get scientific the emotions are from all those hormones surging  through your body in pregnancy. We are supposed to bond with this unborn life with a beating heart. Then, the need to bond with our newly born child once it's entered this world.
 But what my brain tells me which is beyond science itself is that I am helping create a family and these are not my biological children they belong to a beautiful couple who are the intended parents. And in my heart I can only  see the tears and emotions being happiness and joy as these children go home with their parents . So when I am asked if I wish they were mine I can't even hesitate because I know where they belong and I know what God has intended them for. So, nope they are not mine and I don't wish them to be. I wish them to belong to their mom and dad.
 In the beginning of this when I had my psych consult, which is required to be a gestational carrier, she gave me a word of advice which my husband and I thought was completely brilliant and that is that once the delivery is over and everything is all sorted out that my husband bring my own children in for me to cuddle and bond with and then my body gets what it needs to bond with something.
 I love my children there's no one else in the world I want to be my children they're beautiful and precious and they all have their own little personalities and I love my children completely. But, I'm done having children I do not feel in my heart that desire for more children  like I did before my family was complete. That urge to be baby hungry is gone I'm done so I know that it makes it even more easier for me to help those who are having a hard time or have had a hard time having a family of their own.
To my sister!  That was an excellent question, thank you !!

Ultrasound Results

 Have you ever heard the saying that good things come in pairs? I think I believe that there are shoes, gloves, earrings and the animals on Noah's Ark, and spoons and forks, salt-and-pepper shakers, and I am sure there is so much more. But today there is a pair that is going to be coming into the world and those are the TWINS for my Intended Parents.
 I do love the parents reactions with the comments of;
"Two?!!!!  Wow!!!!  This is an amazing day!!  I'm so so happy!!!!!"
"Holy cow!!!!  This is amazing!!!  A little crazy too.  Hahaha.  . . . I'm doing doing backflips here!!!!!"
I love their simple thank yous'.
I can imagine all these years of hard times in tears and and sadness being led to that moment when you hear that not only are you having a baby but you're going to bring home two beautiful babies.
I am doing great as the gestational carrier. I think the only part that has become difficult is the injections. I got the point that my injection sites seemed full and so I moved to a new injection site and all that lead to was difficulty walking. So we are back to the original injection site, it is more comfortable. We are trekking along with a injection end in site. After the 9 week untrasound I will get a weaning schedule that will start one week later. That Ultrasound is only one and a half weeks away so we can just relax and take it easy because there are worse things than a shot.
My simple pleasure right now, when my stomach gives a wave of nausea, is a popsicle, ginger ale, or just a bottle of really cold water. Otherwise I feel great and I am doing great and my family is great because they let me nap without argument.
Congrats to Mom and Dad

"Let It Begin"

 Boy, oh boy, have I been excited to get this ball rolling and now it is rolling. So in anticipation of the day 10 hCG test I, of course, did some pregnancy tests and it was on day seven that a pregnancy test test showed as positive. I am so happy for my Intended Parents, they will be ecstatic.
Then day 10 came and I was very happy to see that the hCG came back at 111.2. Now it is time to wait because there's nothing else to do until the date 20 hCG. The day came and the day went and the results came back at 5569.6. If you're not up on the medical testing lingo that is very good and the intended parents are going to have a BABY.
 As for me, so far so good. I am happy that I have yet to experience any nausea or vomiting which is completely different from my first pregnancy where I threw up every single day from the day I conceived until the day I gave birth which made me very happy that she came four weeks early.  Then my second child I threw up every day from 28 weeks until delivery and my third child was wonderful and I felt fine.
Here are the  symptoms of this pregnancy; I am tired all the time and I occasionally get a headache and I cry often. My husband chuckled at me when he found me laying on the couch bawling while watching Gilmore Girls. I know it is silly but if you've been pregnant before and cried over silly things you know it's a little weird.  As for now I am very happy that I'm not throwing up so far and my coworkers even think it's a little weird but regardless I am not throwing up and I'm going to continue to pray that that doesn't start anytime soon.
So congratulations to dear mom and dad you're going to have a little something to make your family a little bigger, Congratulations!
Until next time I love you